"I could not surrender to death and give life to the enemy at that moment." YPJ fighter Sosin Amed does not forget her journey from Damascus to Derik and from there to Rûgoba, but she never lost her enthusiasm for the revolution.

When the foundations of the Rojava Revolution were laid, Sosin Amed was in Damascus with her family. Sosin Amed followed with interest the formation of the Kurdistan Students' Union (YXK). When the situation in Damascus became unbearable for the Kurds, and after the start of the Rojava Revolution, she returned to Rojava with her family. Reaching Dêrik, Sosin Amed and her family were caught in the middle of war and resistance. Sosin Amed's family decides to move to South Kurdistan. Sosin Amed can't make sense of this decision. She tried to convince her family that leaving their land was the wrong decision, but the family was not convinced. Sosin Amed found herself suddenly torn between the family and the revolution. For Sosin Amed, who could not convince her family, the road to South Kurdistan is a dead end and a dark one. Sosin, who was about to lose hope, was compelled to keep her family busy while looking for a way out, and returned to join the YPJ before leaving Derik.

Now a fighter of Rojava

After the basic training period, Sosin Amed became a YPJ fighter, a fighter of the Rojava territories. She participated in the Çilaxa and Til Hemîs operations. She said: "The Til Temir operation started. There wasn't a day without conflict. While dozens of ISIS mercenaries were killed every day, dozens of people were being rescued. Once the enemy wanted to attack the hill of Rûgoba and the village of Til Nasir. Clashes broke out. The number of friends on the hill was very few, we had to reach the top. In a short time, the enemy took control of all the roads leading to the hills. Regardless, we had to get to the top and get our friends out of the siege. Eventually, we found a water channel leading to the next village. The water channel ran along the side of the hill. By following that channel, we reached the hill of Rûgoba, where our friends were."

Feeling that something happened

Sosin Amed said: "When we reached the top, we took position. The clashes went on for a long time. Eventually, the enemy had to retreat. While retreating, the enemy bombed the hill with tanks and artillery. It was getting colder and colder. I only had one pair of gloves. I had lost the other one. I was wearing a glove in one right hand and one in my left hand. I felt something was going to happen, but I couldn't make sense of it. Just as I was deep in thought, it didn't take long for me to feel the pain in my arm. Looking at my arm, I saw a thin skin dangling from my shoulder and elbow."

Sosin Amed said: "When I saw my arm like that, I knew it was going to be amputated. How was I going to fight again? I was going to pull the mechanism that would raise my weapon. While thinking about this, I said to myself, ‘Sosin, you have to be strong no matter what and never give up’. I was losing a lot of blood. I was slowly passing out. I still had many goals to achieve. So I had to resist. At that moment, I could not surrender to death and give my life to the enemy."